01 February 2016

Step by Step (Plus Announcement!)

Image by Paul Boekell here
I’m not ready.
I have said this before, many times,
And each time it has rung true.
I’m scared—terrified, really,
Of all the things that I could do wrong,
And all the things that might go right.
There is always danger in these quests,
Always battles with monsters, always full of the unexpected.
I do not know the way.
I have never known the way but for the voice behind me that says,
This is the way, walk in it.
Step by step by step.
Hero? Not I. I am but a traveler, a sojourner in an unfamiliar land,
Seeking to use these calloused, bruised, filthy hands to do the work of the Kingdom.
I am not worthy. I never have been.
How could I, one of unclean lips and sinful form,
How could I ever be considered worthy of looking upward in hope,
Hope in the return of the King whom I betrayed, yet even so who ransomed me?
Here am I, Lord, a sinner.
Here am I, Lord, for nothing I had before, no chains or death or sorrow, can compare to the surpassing glory of your face before me.
Here am I. Send me out to do your will in all the world,
To step forward in faith, not seeing yet believing,
Not seeing yet believing.
For you are of more worth than the wealth of the entire world,
You are a treasure beyond compare.
You are my Beloved, the only one that my soul longs for like a deer panting for water—
Yes, you are even water to my thirsty soul.
I am not ready for this new step, this new part of the trail,
These rocks and insurmountable peaks.
But though I am weak, you are strong.
Though I am unready, you are the Captain of my soul, and you will not leave me to flounder in the ocean lost and alone.
And so I step forward again.
In the morning I awake with the knowledge that every day is of great worth,
Because I am drawing closer to my God.
I take on each new piece of the quest in fervent hope,
Knowing that there is already victory in the hand of my Savior.
And so I go, though I am unready, though I know not the way,
For He who goes before me has overcome the world. 

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~IMPORTANT ANNOUNCEMENT~

Hello lovely readers! So I have some exciting news (for me) that might not be exciting (for you) or may be really exciting (for you) I don't know. Basically, I have been accepted to a 12-week long discipleship training school where I basically get to go and learn about God and fellowship with believers. What this means is that in a few days I am LEAVING for said 12-weeks and will not be able to post on my blog for that amount of time! *gasp of shock and relief from everyone* This may also mean that I have less or no time to read/comment on YOUR lovely posts (which makes me all of the sads), but know that it is not because I don't love you all, it is because I am super busy. So yeah. Miles in the Rain will be silent for a while, but I'm sure I'll come back in May armed with tons of poetry. I hope you guys have a fabulous time and I WILL BE BACK. 

Thank you for reading! I will miss you! :-)  

28 comments :

  1. waaaaaHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. SO SAD. BUT SO GOOD. but i men idc bc u r my wff luzer <3 <3 <3

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    1. XDDDDDDDDDDDDD <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 I will miss you so bad.

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    2. okay so that's lame. your thing destroyed THE OTHER HALF. OF MY COMMENT. *sobs like a baby and throws a tantrum* *kidding*

      I think (XDDD) I said:

      Love you, love the poem, love dis.

      I also said something else but I can't recall it so I'll improvise....AND I WILL MISS YOU FOREVER BUT I CAN'T WAIT UNTIL YOU GET BACK AND WE'LL HANG OUT AND TALK FOREVER AND GO TO A WEDDING AND DO GOOD THINGS. <3 <3 <3 see you then.

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    3. and very important thing that it also deleted...I DID A BROKEN HEART INSTEAD OF THREE HEARTS FOR THE WFF. this thing is making it look like I love you or something. ;-)

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    4. Wow, so dumb. XDDD But I'm glad there's more. MOAR. YAY.

      Love you lots too. :-D

      SAME SAME SAME I LOVE YOU SEE YOU SOON(ish).

      XDDDDDDDDDD And oh well. Just goes to show that you actually love me muahahahaha.

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  2. DON'T LEAAAAAAAAAAAAVE MEEEEEEEEEEE WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA.
    so imma come and visit u. is that allowed? i've got connections though...maybe if i bring the gram she'll be able to get me in. also i need to get home and record the songs for you.

    just reminding myself. XD

    I love this. I love you. Also is that how you spell wff because dude I did not know that and now I'm glad I do because that could've been a disaster.

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    1. You'll be fine.

      I think it's allowed. If you tell me and I tell people. And yeah. I told you like three months ago to record songs for me. ;-P

      WFF = Worst Friends Forever, which is how the texter me and texter Cally refer to each other because I think hate is our love language. ;-)

      Love ya!

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  3. ALSDKJFLSDKFJLSDKFJSDLKALSDKFJD. *DEEP BREATH*
    Ahhhhhhhhhhh gonna miss you so much but this discipleship thing sounds AMAZING. Have tons of fun and growth and goodness. CAN'T WAIT FOR THE POETRY.

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    1. ADKNAFONWONOWNOA OLIVIAAAAA. I love your comments so much. Thank you so much for the comment and the kind words! And yeah, I'm stoked for it. :-D See ya around! If you still remember my blog exists in three months.... XD

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  4. awwwww *cries*
    i'm gonna miss you something terrible, hannah <3 but i know that God can use this time to really make an impact in your life so. :) Have a TON of fun and make good memories <3

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    1. *hugs* Don't cryyyyy. I'll miss you, too Autumn! Thank you so much for your comment. It means a ton. :-)

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  5. have you ever heard The First Semester of Spanish Love Song? Because there's a part where he sings, "NO LEEEEAVOOOOOO. NO LEEEEEEAVOOOOO." AND I RELATE TO IT STRONGLY RIGHT NOW.

    Stay here. Your goddess of overlords commands.

    YOUR POEM IS SO PRETTY THOUGHHHHH. *Cries all the tears* You're so brave and stuff and things....

    Also, don't forget to get me your new mailing address cause I'mma need it for your birthday. *blink blink*

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  6. So my computer has now crashed TWICE while I try to write this comment. I think that you are doing something to my Spike. :-P

    Anyways I have not heard that.... sounds hilarious. XDDD I'M SORRY BUT I MUST GO. I MUST MUST.

    Can't. Shan't. But I am sad for you. So take comfort in that, dear hobbit.

    THANK YOUUUUUUUUUU. I am so not brave, but Christ is, so there's that. :-D

    And yasss I will do that but I don't have it yet. I WILL GET IT TO YOU WHEN I GET IT OKAY? OKAY. Bai now.

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  7. Have fuuunnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn learn lots don't get brainwashed


    XD

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    1. I willlllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll and I prolly will and I won't.

      XD

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    2. psh what she's already brainwashed the next thing she needs is a metal arm and raccoon eye shadow

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    3. That girl who just commented...I knew her...

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  8. AHHHHHHHHHHH GIRL. WHAT WILL THE BLOG-SPHERE BE LIKE SANS YOU????? D': But may your time at this school be BLESSED and AMAZING and so, so, fulfilling. May your heart brim with the beauty of the Lord. And "armed with tons of poetry" < I love the sound of that.

    I'll miss you girl! Have a great few months! *HUGS*

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    1. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH KATIE! HAI! It will probably be better without me. XD I dunno. Maybe you guys will all go on Hannah withdrawals. You'll be like WHERE IS HER SPORADIC POETRY? HOW WILL I LIVE WITHOUT GOING TO HER BLOG JUST TO SEE THE HEADER? ;-) Anyway THANK YOU SO MUCH for the comment and being awesome. <3 <3 <3 You make me so happay.

      I'll miss you too! I will try! *bear hug*

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  9. I just found your blog and am throughly enchanted, you definitely have yourself a new follower. :)

    Ava
    http://landofquiet.blogspot.com

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    1. Ava! Thank you! You are too sweet. :-)

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  10. GURL. I just wanna jump through this computer screen and give you a big long hug. EEEEEEEEEE. Have the most amazing time at school, okay?? I'll be praying for all the blessings to shower upon you and may you find grace and love and peace with everything. Love you so much!!

    xo,
    abbiee

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    1. ABBIE! SAME SAME! Why can't we have portal computers??? WHY???? I WILL TRY AND I WILL TRY TO TAKE NOTES AND WRITE TONS OF POETRY AND TAKE PICTURES AND STUFF FOR YOU GUYS. Thank you so much and love you tons! I will miss you so much. <3 <3 <3

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  11. Ooh, I feel special since I knew BEFORE YOU TOLD OTHER PEOPLE! But I totally didn't even think about the possibility of you not being able to do bloggy things while you're gone. That is sad. But I will be keeping touch, and you will be doing awesome things, so yay!

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    1. Haha you ARE special! XD And I knowwwww. I wish that I could keep up with blogging but it's not gonna happen. :-) BUT YES WE GET TO STAY IN CONTACT WOO! That's exciting.

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  12. Hey! You got accepted! Coooool. You've gotta remember why you're going, so find a husband while you're over there. ;-) XDDDDDD

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  13. YOU'RE LEAVING???

    NOOOOO.

    On the other hand, I like your poetry.

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  14. ARE YOU BACK YETTTTTTTTTTTT *cris 4 dayz*

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