I wasn't expecting it when I walked out the door last night. I knew we had snow, I knew that more was coming. But I didn't expect it to be breathtaking. The fog graced the streets and the Christmas lights reflected off of the fog in the warm kind of way that makes you want to dance for sheer joy.
I shivered, inadvertently catching the snowflakes in my hair and my eyelashes. I giggled and opened my mouth to let the snowflakes hit my tongue because no one's too old for that. Not when it actually snows.
How to express it perfectly? I can't. My words are just words after all. If only I could take you there, to show off the world like the gift that it is--See, see! Come and look! The words are blessedly childlike, and my eyes are, too--wide, and filled with wonder.
I have had to grow up a lot this year. Each passing day makes me a day older. I'm an adult now. I've learned things; hard things, good things. I've let old things die so that new things might sprout (or at least, it's happened with me kicking and screaming and then finally seeing it as good).
But it has all come down to this one thing. This one thing that often it takes being a child again to see, because it's simple enough to miss.
It's Christ, and only Christ. It cannot be anything of myself because myself is fading away day by day. What is eternal? Christ is. And He is my one desire--not these other things that I spend so much time working after.
How beautiful to fall so madly in love with this God, this Creator of snowflakes that cling to my eyelashes, this Author of the joy that pours through my heart and pumps through my veins. Would that I could be emptied of all the me that is left in my heart, to take on only the fullness of Christ, because the me that I have held onto for all this time is nothing compared to the surpassing worth of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord. (Philippians 3:8b)
How good it is to be nothing, for He completes me with His everything!
One thing have I asked of the Lord,
that I will seek after:
that I may dwell in the house of the Lord
all the days of my life,
to gaze upon the beauty of the Lord
and to inquire in his temple.
Psalm 27:4
How to express it perfectly? You just did.
ReplyDeleteadkanfgknwo Thank you, Grace Anne. That means more than I can say.
DeleteOhhh! These footprints are just amazing! Your explanation works so well!
ReplyDeleteThank you so much, Vanessa!
DeleteAMEN. AMEN AMEN AMEN. *screams it into the night* Christ is the only absolute truth, the only One that can redeem this broken Zion lying shattered on the ground. He is the only thing. Why do I ever look elsewhere? Teach me steadiness, oh Lord. I am Thy little handmaiden. ♥
ReplyDeleteAmen and amen. :-) <3 I love you. Thanks for the words. :-D
Deleteabsolutely beautiful Hannah! thank you for sharing your love of life! love you!
ReplyDeleteLove and miss you so much! Thank you!
Delete*JUMPS AROUND ON HOT COALS* HOO HAH HOO HAH I LOVE THIS
ReplyDeleteSomething about snow is just so pure and cleansing and like COLD AND FREEZING and SO GOOD. I love it. You should come to my house when it snows and we'll go sledding. ;-D
XDDDDDDDDDD I love you. And yessss I want to go sledding!
DeleteI WANT SNOW TOO.
ReplyDeleteno one's too old for being a kid, huh? <3
Come here, then! :-D Though, today is sunny and bright and the snow is melting... still, by the time the cold nighttime comes, the snow still won't be gone, I bet.
DeleteAnd no, no one is. :-)